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My doc keeps saying it's in God's hands, and I've prayed more in the past few weeks than I have in years. Prayers to Our Lady of La Leche, St. Gianna, St. Catherine, St. Gerard, and JP II. My previous miscarriage and subsequent infertility shook my faith to its core. Being pregnant has helped me reconnect with God because I so desperately crave His mercy that this child in me may live, but I'm scared. I'm also scared of teetering over the edge into despair and rage at God if this child dies, because if it's all God's will, then logic dictates God wills the child's death... Anyway, I'm scared for this child, and for me, and for my faith if something happens to this child. People say God never gives you more than you can handle, and granted another m/c won't kill me... But I fear it will kill my soul. Infertility had already started that process. I'm praying for a miracle. 

Please God, let my baby live. All the angels and saints, intercede for me and for this baby that s/he may live....