Hi. I already said goodbye two weeks ago when I learned my hCG levels weren't doubling, but I then came back when we saw some growth on an ultrasound. But that's over now. Doc confirmed today on u/s at 8 weeks that it's a blighted ovum. So I am leaving you. You didn't know me. I didn't know you. But I've spent 4 weeks consuming all of your posts with delight, cradling my iPhone to my chest as I reclined in bed to rest and take care of myself. I read every single one of your posts. I commented on some of them.
I will try not to lurk, although that will be hard. I got thrown off your train and I can't promise I won't try to stealthily get back on from time to time. Heck, I'll probably lurk on here years from now to dream about how the child I might have had would be doing if s/he had survived. I recently lurked on the June 2009 board, just to see how old my first and only other baby would be now if I hadn't miscarried. She'd be 2 by now.
But I won't post again. So thanks. And goodbye.
Hey you. I commented on your original post on babycenter. When I saw how beautifully... how heartbreakingly you write, I came to your blog. Words won't make this better, but I wanted to let you know that I'm listening and reading. I am part of your audience and please know that someone out there is sharing your pain.
ReplyDeleteFound you from BC. I am so sorry for your loss, and I know how you feel, we lost a baby girl at 16 weeks. I think it's amazing that you work through some of these feelings in words, I couldn't breathe, let alone write out to the world what I was feeling. Thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteHi again, I was thinking about you today as I looked at my posts on BC. I don't really post that often, so yours showed in my recent post list, and I thought I'd pop back in and let you know that someone that you don't know is still praying for you. Take gentle care of yourself.
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